Waha, its been a real long time since i updated my blog. Been real busy, and real lazy to update it. Well, guess what, i fell sick again, at least this time i know wads da cause of it. The doc confirmed that i have "sy-ness ?"(LOL, i have no idea how to spell this thing" but its a nasal allergy according to the doc). In short, it means i have sensitive nose, so now i must spray some wierd spray into my nostrils every night. Smells sucky, but i suppose it should help. And my phlegm these few days is really thick. I do mean thick, cos it always clogs up the sieve. And its yellowish, yucks.

Ok, now the more serious stuff.

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Lately, i've been finding it increasingly difficult to trust God in several areas. Firstly, bgr. Wahaha, its so like me to talk about such stuff. I dont see a link, but somehow, year two seems to be a hotbed of activities. Maybe becos love is in the air. Haha. But honestly, there are now so many couples in VJ that the treehouse seems to be overcrowding with couples making out. This is tempting, real tempting. Such circumstances are making it incredibly difficult to trust God.
Maybe its because i think too much, but i keep thinking about myself - my looks, height, close friends. How am i gonna get a gf next time? Aiyoh. Haha. In school, there are like, only 2 kinda guys not attached - the committed ones and the monks. Haha, i used to be the committed kind, always reminding myself that its ok, and that God will send me the right one next time. I used to always remind myself also that its all up to God's timing. Now, somehow, i'm trusting so much in my own abilities, or even, my lack of it. And thats making me feel so much like a monk.

haha, ok, i guess im talking crap. But well, crap is good.