Recently, i realized i've changed quite abit, maybe cos of work, maybe cos of friends, but i'm starting to get quite erm... how do i put it... lets just say i'm becoming different. Wont want to elaborate on it though.
Its been good that i havent really been thinking of her too much. Really good, in fact, i'll say that these few days have given me quite a brutal awakening. Why? Because they have taught me to hold on tight to my principles in life, and that is, to hold on to God's rules. It sounds so holy, coming from me, but its quite true. I've been through the highest, and the lowest in my Christian walk this year, but these few days alone have slapped me to my senses, reminding me of how much more life is about.

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Ok, on a different note, i may soon be back to work!!! yay! i've been jobless for the past few days, quite sore about it, ok, maybe not sore, but... feeling uneasy about not working, especially seeing the figures in my bank account dwindle. Its a very scary feeling, like my pays gone the moment i get it. Now that i may be getting back to work, i need the money to pay for x'mas presents, which effectively leaves me with almost $0 to save. so dumb.